Whopeeee!!!The most incredible thing happen!!!
So glad i came to the TP Alumni Nite, although not much of the people we knew were there, but its ok becoz i already anticipated that. Its was well-organized event, and the food was great, i find them delicious actually but maybe the fact that the commitee keep us hungry till 9 plus could have attributed to that as well. Hee.. But it was definately better than some of the weddings that i have went too. Its also the first time i seen Chicken rice being served in buffet. The smell of the chilli sauce was simply droolsome.
Was a bit disappointed when i notice that there were many that came not according to the theme, but was a bit excited when i noticed that my attire was gettin lotsa attention. Well...im a gal, so it does feels great to have guys and gals turning heads at every corner.
Being nominated for Retro Queen didn't came too much of a surprise, i guess its because im used to being nominated for titles of best-Dressed and end up not winning any. So i had in my heart thought that "not again, have to face losing in front of so much people" but that thinkin was cut shot when i notice the lacklustre support the other participants received. Its was a really wonderful feeling when u see all these people whom u dunno clapping and cheering for u when i step forward. Having won the title Retro Queen in front of R meant a lot for me, felt happy coz R can be so proud of me. But i muz say the commitee could really place more effort in preparing the winning prize, i expect no tiara but receiving just 3 small roses and 3 small bears, i hd to used my whole strength to prevent the disappointment from showing on my face. But still at least i knew my Baby will be proud that his gal is a Retro Queen. Hee...
Saturday, January 13, 2007
Friday, January 12, 2007
Its a Beautiful day
Thank God for the strength to go on. Things kinda of gets a teeny weeny bit better, as long as i don't put too high hopes or should i say don't put in any hopes, breathing during work seems so much better. Relationship ah...it has its ups & downs, but im relief the bad is finally over.
i miss the old me sometimes, full of smile, considerate for others, simple. i promise myself i will nt be easily jealous i will not be so full of myself anymore. I will not follow people's opinion, i live for myself and not for others. I will not forced myself to follow others opinion, things that i know is right i will do.
Look forward to going overseas with R, one thing i have learnt which is going overseas is with people whom u r not closed is definately not fun.
i miss the old me sometimes, full of smile, considerate for others, simple. i promise myself i will nt be easily jealous i will not be so full of myself anymore. I will not follow people's opinion, i live for myself and not for others. I will not forced myself to follow others opinion, things that i know is right i will do.
Look forward to going overseas with R, one thing i have learnt which is going overseas is with people whom u r not closed is definately not fun.
Friday, January 05, 2007
So happy
Hahaha i so so despise myself sometimes, for having no pride, no self-confidence & lack of self-control. A wonderful sentence,'Tears are a women's weapon' but what people often forgets(incl mi) is that when facing the opposite sex, they hate to be confronted with weapons.
But what should a women do when her 'weapon' is powerless, when she sees the world as a lonely 3 dimensional space, slowly she dun sees the reason to smile, nothin much is interestin enough to keep her smile up. Many times she tried to cheer people around her up, lame jokes, crappy jokes, lending a listening ear now & then, giving an understanding smile when things disappoint her in life. Sometimes it tires her out, it brings her deep in thought as to could the key lies in herself. Maybe she expects too much from her life, but lookin at people around her. She saw the reality of life too, with people putting on a fake front everyday. ...Hahaha
People seek solace in religion, in God when they are in distress, but me...hee..as ive mention in previous blog..ive already drawn further & further away...i still love God but its so hard to draw near to him. I self-guide myself right from the start, i move my way inch by inch towards God with my own will & heart. Now im lost, tired..its like a desert. The oasis seems so near, i can imagine its clear pretty blue water, the fresh air but the walk alone is so...alone... Bible study...hahaha....I used to feel full of fire, so eager to know all abt him, so eager to enrol & i spent more time with my cell group more than with any other friends. But after 2 years i realise than my spiritual life seems no different than what i was 2 years ago. I lack the determination, this i blame no one. But why is it that juz because to others i seem independent therefore no one bother about my spiritual growth. With R, its no different. I need a leader, a strong one. My sister was my spiritual pillar of support, telling me wonderful testimonials of God now & then, but even she now spends more time with others than with me. Its time to escape..to close my eyes to close my thoughts...maybe to be emotionally shutdown is not that bad an idea. Well...knowing my character this form of shutdown shouldn't last long, but sometimes juz like a computer, even human need to shutdown & restart .
But what should a women do when her 'weapon' is powerless, when she sees the world as a lonely 3 dimensional space, slowly she dun sees the reason to smile, nothin much is interestin enough to keep her smile up. Many times she tried to cheer people around her up, lame jokes, crappy jokes, lending a listening ear now & then, giving an understanding smile when things disappoint her in life. Sometimes it tires her out, it brings her deep in thought as to could the key lies in herself. Maybe she expects too much from her life, but lookin at people around her. She saw the reality of life too, with people putting on a fake front everyday. ...Hahaha
People seek solace in religion, in God when they are in distress, but me...hee..as ive mention in previous blog..ive already drawn further & further away...i still love God but its so hard to draw near to him. I self-guide myself right from the start, i move my way inch by inch towards God with my own will & heart. Now im lost, tired..its like a desert. The oasis seems so near, i can imagine its clear pretty blue water, the fresh air but the walk alone is so...alone... Bible study...hahaha....I used to feel full of fire, so eager to know all abt him, so eager to enrol & i spent more time with my cell group more than with any other friends. But after 2 years i realise than my spiritual life seems no different than what i was 2 years ago. I lack the determination, this i blame no one. But why is it that juz because to others i seem independent therefore no one bother about my spiritual growth. With R, its no different. I need a leader, a strong one. My sister was my spiritual pillar of support, telling me wonderful testimonials of God now & then, but even she now spends more time with others than with me. Its time to escape..to close my eyes to close my thoughts...maybe to be emotionally shutdown is not that bad an idea. Well...knowing my character this form of shutdown shouldn't last long, but sometimes juz like a computer, even human need to shutdown & restart .
Wednesday, January 03, 2007
New Year Resolution
Finalli...the old year is gone, 2006 is full of its ups & downs, as the new year comes in 2007, i set myself new resolutions that i hope i will be able to upkeep. I look forward to a wonderful 2007, and may all of us strive to new heights in this good year!!
1) To find the job that can expands and nurture my full potential.
2) To coordinate & balance my time between friends, church, family & prince charming.
3) To be more initiative in contacting my old friends and close friends
4) To be more sales driven & more hardworking in my job, though i may nt stay long i wish to leave behind a good record : )
5) To be more understanding towards everyone in my life and this extends to EVERYONE & nt juz my beloved.
6) To think more, speak less
7) To think faster than i speak(now thats real tough!)
8) To be more lady like
9) To start saving for my future
10) To eat less oily stuff & stay away from chocs
11) To tidy up my room
12) To spend day & night missing my baby
and the list goes on......
1) To find the job that can expands and nurture my full potential.
2) To coordinate & balance my time between friends, church, family & prince charming.
3) To be more initiative in contacting my old friends and close friends
4) To be more sales driven & more hardworking in my job, though i may nt stay long i wish to leave behind a good record : )
5) To be more understanding towards everyone in my life and this extends to EVERYONE & nt juz my beloved.
6) To think more, speak less
7) To think faster than i speak(now thats real tough!)
8) To be more lady like
9) To start saving for my future
10) To eat less oily stuff & stay away from chocs
11) To tidy up my room
12) To spend day & night missing my baby
and the list goes on......
Tuesday, January 02, 2007
Went to Marina Square for a lacklustre countdown, but the fireworks was good. But the crowd has no sense of timing and no one had the initiative to start a countdown. Not that fantastic but oh well its free viewing so can't really expect much, i guess in Singapore we can't expect that much.
Went for a KTV marathon after countdown from 12.30am - 6am at marina square!! Im so tired but really enjoyed myself coz its a great way to bond with my friends!!!Met my ex-bf there, what a small world!
Spent the whole day with R, & i mean the WHOLE day from 8am onwards till the next day morning, i was so happy. Although i wasn't in my usual over-enthu self but i guess its good too coz its time i learn to be more lady-like. Glad i choose to spent the rest of the evening with him instead of meeting a gal friend of mine coz i can see he really appreciate it. Felt super loved by him, it has been so long since he treat me like a princess.
Went for a KTV marathon after countdown from 12.30am - 6am at marina square!! Im so tired but really enjoyed myself coz its a great way to bond with my friends!!!Met my ex-bf there, what a small world!
Spent the whole day with R, & i mean the WHOLE day from 8am onwards till the next day morning, i was so happy. Although i wasn't in my usual over-enthu self but i guess its good too coz its time i learn to be more lady-like. Glad i choose to spent the rest of the evening with him instead of meeting a gal friend of mine coz i can see he really appreciate it. Felt super loved by him, it has been so long since he treat me like a princess.
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