After procrastinating for months, thinking about it for years, I finally join a church ministry. Since 3 weeks ago, I start serving in the nursery in my church. It's fun but it's really tiring for me, following the young kids everywhere.
I think cuz I'm new so I intend to try to have something to do all the time, like starting a new job. Cuz when I look ard the room, all the rest looks relax n sometimes bored (maybe sleepy) although a cute kid is playing in front of them.
Being in a nursery gives me mixed feelings about having a child of my own. For a moment when a really really cute baby is playing in front of me, It makes me yearn to have one too but the next moment I wld see an irritating fella snatching other babies toys or crying out loud jus cuz they dun wanna share their toy.Which breaks my thought totally.
HaHa.
And of cuz, old news. My baby nephew is out. Heard he is capable of doing many many cute expression AND also cry fiercely when unprovoked.
Handsome Boy. It's really hard To play with babies. Cuz I came to realize, the key seems to lies in how good u r in distracting them, getting their attention, cuz at infant stage they r nt gonna play peek-a-boo with u definitely.
The sad thing is that a pity Eiden can never see or be carried in the arms by PoPo. Cuz my Ah Ma passed away on Sat. Died of old age at a respectful age of 93. She died while being surrounded by most of her children. Am so glad & truly thank God for the blessing, allowing her to not died alone. My aunts told me dat my Ah Ma had often ask, when is she leaving, she wish to leave, cuz all her friends are gone. I dunno but jus feel sad. It's like a let in on how she felt inside. Really lonely.
On weekdays, as she is wheelchair bound, her only entertainment would be tv watching & talking to the maid. Her Indonesian maid understands English, Chinese and Dialect. But still the sucky feelin of nothin much to look forward in life, to jus live ur life day by day. I jus couldn't imagine.
Jus finish funeral procession of Ah Ma last 9 days ago. Took almost 8 hrs. My tears came only when Ah Ma was gonna be push into the furnace, any human being would wept buckets when u see and hear ur mum & relatives crying out loud, calling out.
Though I never really got a chance to get to know her better or let her have a chance to know me better cuz she was already close to 70 when I learnt to speak.
It really makes me wanna have a kid fast. My mum is already coming to 65. I want my kid To be able to chit chat with both my parents, know them with their heart. To have a grandparents bonding.
- Posted from Me to You
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