Started my new job recently, yeah once again im not the only newcomer, really glad abt that. It really helps a lot when u know that u hve someone else to be a newbie together with u. Cindy is a realli nice person, i can just feel from her aura, hahaha. There's no Watson here, haiz...realli feel mouth itchy sometimes. Though i bought some small snacks from Watson on my way back home, but i jus keep feeling that its not enough.
Well Well, i had too many snacks and too little drinks,consequence... i had a terrible terrible sore thoroat, it came with the usual value pack. Sore Throat + Cold/Flu + Cough + Ugly green phlegm. Yucksss. Compensating my body with lotsa H2O seems too late now. I am finishin the doc's full course of medicine soon, but i dun seem to see myself recoverin a teeny bit. So suay. Cindy even more suay, kena dengue fever, whew...luckily its not me, thank God.
Friday, October 26, 2007
Tuesday, October 02, 2007
My Sucess My Future
I receive the call!! I receive the call!! The girl from Ginvera called and said i was shortlist for a second interview, doesn't everyone knows that a second interview simply means you r in!!! Omigod!!! She even ask mi if i have settle my other job offers. I told her i am gonna settle them real soon. Omigod Brand executive, it sounds so cool. Taking charge of Taiwan market, Omigod!!!
Now im really lost man, i really have no idea how to put this across to Carol. How to you say to someone, 'Hi i know i work for like 3 days but i gotta leave this job, thanks bye' it sounds easy but anyone will know when it comes to your own self to actual doing it. Its real hard man. Whew...wish mi luck man. Its a tough decision deep down, i had really look forward to having a good career set in Studio Wu when i went for my interview, but when im here, things just dun seem the way i have hoped it would be. It takes a....um..how to say..an independant person to work here. Task are somehow self-created, it sounds good to some ppl i know, but im not some ppl.
Now im really lost man, i really have no idea how to put this across to Carol. How to you say to someone, 'Hi i know i work for like 3 days but i gotta leave this job, thanks bye' it sounds easy but anyone will know when it comes to your own self to actual doing it. Its real hard man. Whew...wish mi luck man. Its a tough decision deep down, i had really look forward to having a good career set in Studio Wu when i went for my interview, but when im here, things just dun seem the way i have hoped it would be. It takes a....um..how to say..an independant person to work here. Task are somehow self-created, it sounds good to some ppl i know, but im not some ppl.
Thursday, September 27, 2007
The Interview
Went for the Interview at Ginvera today, ooohh feel so excited, excited at being shortlist and excited at having a chance for another job. Studio Wu is a great place but it may not be the perfect place for mi to carve a good career path right now. My vision right now is to have a good job and since im equipping myself with a degree right now i really hope to land myself in another one of those big FMCG firms or even Luxury brand firms one day.
The interview went well, chances of getting a pass in this is quite high, but i really do not dare to pin high hopes now, luck has not been on my side for the past few months. Really hope God can give mi a good deal.At Studio Wu, i can't attend my cell group anymore, on one end it isn't really a bad thing but on the other i feel like im a cheater. When i was in Amore Fitness, i pray for a job that will allow mi to go for services regularly and to cell groups and indeed i gotten an office job that let mi off at 5pm sharply. But now at Studio Wu, i need to work till 9pm and perhaps on Sundays too. I really appreciate them letting mi go off early on days when im having my p/time classes. But....the lure of getting a truly job is high. And i know that my guy loves to have an office lady as a gf.
Well i just have to see how things goes.
The interview went well, chances of getting a pass in this is quite high, but i really do not dare to pin high hopes now, luck has not been on my side for the past few months. Really hope God can give mi a good deal.At Studio Wu, i can't attend my cell group anymore, on one end it isn't really a bad thing but on the other i feel like im a cheater. When i was in Amore Fitness, i pray for a job that will allow mi to go for services regularly and to cell groups and indeed i gotten an office job that let mi off at 5pm sharply. But now at Studio Wu, i need to work till 9pm and perhaps on Sundays too. I really appreciate them letting mi go off early on days when im having my p/time classes. But....the lure of getting a truly job is high. And i know that my guy loves to have an office lady as a gf.
Well i just have to see how things goes.
Love is Real
Mentality of Humans confuse me sometimes. As i breeze through various friendster sites, as i see various movies, TV shows, it appears to me so strongly that we live in a world full of emotions. Expressed emotions. I remember the C.K fragrance ad, TOUCH. I see aged couples hugging, couples kissing, a happy mum touching her baby. We live in a world that is full of love, happiness unfortunately of course there is hate and anger too.
For me, i look at myself as someone who expresses herself freely, to my loved ones, i pamper them, i hug them i showcase my love to the world i hold them affectionately when in public.
I have heard from people, a mature person doesn't need to publicize their love, to showcase their love, to display pictures of you being with your boyfriend is considered to be disgusting or perhaps childhish. To me it doesn't matter, we do not even know if tomorrow ever comes, i may live today and die tomorrow in an accident. Choi u may say, touchwood. But u can't deny its the truth. Thats y i live my everyday at its best, i do not wait or even hesitate to tell my loved ones how much i love them. People who keep thinking about their self-image, their self-proclaimed maturity, self-restrained towards their love life ultimately are the losers in their own relationship.
For me, i look at myself as someone who expresses herself freely, to my loved ones, i pamper them, i hug them i showcase my love to the world i hold them affectionately when in public.
I have heard from people, a mature person doesn't need to publicize their love, to showcase their love, to display pictures of you being with your boyfriend is considered to be disgusting or perhaps childhish. To me it doesn't matter, we do not even know if tomorrow ever comes, i may live today and die tomorrow in an accident. Choi u may say, touchwood. But u can't deny its the truth. Thats y i live my everyday at its best, i do not wait or even hesitate to tell my loved ones how much i love them. People who keep thinking about their self-image, their self-proclaimed maturity, self-restrained towards their love life ultimately are the losers in their own relationship.
New Day New Job
Gonna start my first day at StudioWu, i know i should be feeling excited, enthusiatic and full of drive. But thinking about how i nearly lose an opportunity make me feel low going for my first day work. Well well well, i guess i just have to take things as it goes. Im going for my first day today and yet im going for another interview tomorrow hahaha....but i really hope i can get into that FMCG company tomorrow as it will be really what i ask from God.
Tuesday, September 25, 2007
YucKs Sickness sinks in
Finally recover from my long sickness, i couldn't believe how i could have survived without Bert by my side. I started vomitting and having diarrhoea since Wednesday, and its hard to get morsel of food into my body. I never felt so hungry before, i was eager to have food but my body kept dispelling everything out. But it does felt good to have Bert feeding me by the spoon like im a baby. Hmmm...i think im getting too used to it le, it makes me feel tired to feed myself now. : )
IM SO HAPPY to weigh myself now, i stepped onto the bathroom scale confidently and ta-da i got my satisfying results right before my eyes, a good 4-5kg loss. Hahahahaha it makes all the suffering these few days so damn worth it. Hahaha
IM SO HAPPY to weigh myself now, i stepped onto the bathroom scale confidently and ta-da i got my satisfying results right before my eyes, a good 4-5kg loss. Hahahahaha it makes all the suffering these few days so damn worth it. Hahaha
Sunday, July 08, 2007
Deep in my heart I cry for you
Every tear that falls feels like a wound
the stars in the skies gently shines
Taking away my pain
And even though I do not have the strength to go on
Even though I try to hold on
This love will never ever be meant for me
But I’ll keep on smiling…
Even though my dreams wont come true
I’ll remember every moment with you
Like the stars that shine forever
I’ll treasure my love
For you
Every tear that falls feels like a wound
the stars in the skies gently shines
Taking away my pain
And even though I do not have the strength to go on
Even though I try to hold on
This love will never ever be meant for me
But I’ll keep on smiling…
Even though my dreams wont come true
I’ll remember every moment with you
Like the stars that shine forever
I’ll treasure my love
For you
Saturday, July 07, 2007
Memories are best when they stay deep in your heart, they are something that no one can steal from you, something that will never expire, something that will only fade but will still be there. Will i still be in your memory after 1 year? 5 Years? 10 years?
There is never a day i have to remember you cause there is never a day i have forgotten you
Never forgotten was our first meet-up at Bugis. Your charming face blows me off my feet, but my pride tells me to remain calm in case you are nothing but a player, a flirt. To be oblivious to your appearance, your body and your scent. Me dressed in a worn-out black tee, and a simply not flattering black pants. Our first supper destination;Mount Faber. 'How interesting' i was thinking in my heart. its like the top destination under the listing of '100 ways to hook a girl' Deep down i was delighted but i held myself up, not allowing myself to show any bit of happiness. I keep my distance while sitting in his bike, not allowing any single inch of my body to touch his, again its a woman's pride thingy. 'Its just a date' i keep telling myself.
We had a great time talking to each other, the fact that he didn't order any alcohol and he didn't light up a single cigarette. It just adds points. 'Its just a date' i repeatedly tell myself. At the end of the day when i reach home, my face show a frowning look as i stare at my reflection in the mirror.'Is he gonna still sms me tml, was whatever i said sounds logical or humourous to him, Was he turn off with my super sloppy dressing??' it was a sleepless night.
After one week of sms and phone call, we went out for a movie, a morning session, on a valentine Day morning. Its was a Korean movie 'Seasons of Love' Depicting four different relationships, but all has a sad ending. I was scolding myself at the end of the show for choosing such show on a Valentine Day outing. We went for a lunch at a restaurant at Cineleisure, i remember myself feeling very much flattered when i caught his eyes on my bare shoulders, he was definately checking me out. Hahaha. Im just very wicked sometimes. I tease him about it and he simply blush and became slightly flustered and shy. I proudly gave him the Valentine present i had prepared for him, but he was even more flustered as he hadn't thought i would prepare anything as i wasn't his girlfriend yet. 'One point deducted' i was thinking. But seeing him being so flustered, how can i bear to place any blame on him. On the second day(or was it the third?), he offered to sent me home after work. I was given a very pleasant surprise when he give me his 'belated' Valentine Day present,he was very affected by the fact that i had prepared something and he didn't. It was a nicely wrapped up box with a card that says something along the line of 'Hope this dog can keep me company' As i have a jack russel dog that ran away sometime ago, its so sweet of him to buy something to replace. But i was puzzled, when i opened the box at home. Out came a coin bank in the shape of a bear. My mum walk by and say' What a nice Snoopy dog' And i answered her 'Are you kiddin me, this is a bear isn't it?' But she insist its a bear. Chatting with R on the phone that night, he said he bought a dog coin bank, but i replied him it really looks like a bear, but he insist to him it looks like a dog. Oh well, after a few weeks, everything was out, the sales girl had taken the wrong coin bank. R had selected the dog coin bank, but a bear coin bank when under the wrapper instead. Its was still a wonderful memory.....
our subsequent movies...his fingers would quietly go to my palms, and he would tickle the heart of my palm. It infuriate me at first, as i treat that action as he is trying to flirt and is initiating some sexual motions. But i later realise this naive fellow doesn't have any idea about how rude that action is. I guess im just a too sensitive person. He folded his arms while watching movie, but his fingers would run gently from the side of his body over to my upper arms, tapping at it playfully. That was our beginning, the mark of a beautiful story, my beautiful story, that will unfold throughout the months.
There is never a day i have to remember you cause there is never a day i have forgotten you
Never forgotten was our first meet-up at Bugis. Your charming face blows me off my feet, but my pride tells me to remain calm in case you are nothing but a player, a flirt. To be oblivious to your appearance, your body and your scent. Me dressed in a worn-out black tee, and a simply not flattering black pants. Our first supper destination;Mount Faber. 'How interesting' i was thinking in my heart. its like the top destination under the listing of '100 ways to hook a girl' Deep down i was delighted but i held myself up, not allowing myself to show any bit of happiness. I keep my distance while sitting in his bike, not allowing any single inch of my body to touch his, again its a woman's pride thingy. 'Its just a date' i keep telling myself.
We had a great time talking to each other, the fact that he didn't order any alcohol and he didn't light up a single cigarette. It just adds points. 'Its just a date' i repeatedly tell myself. At the end of the day when i reach home, my face show a frowning look as i stare at my reflection in the mirror.'Is he gonna still sms me tml, was whatever i said sounds logical or humourous to him, Was he turn off with my super sloppy dressing??' it was a sleepless night.
After one week of sms and phone call, we went out for a movie, a morning session, on a valentine Day morning. Its was a Korean movie 'Seasons of Love' Depicting four different relationships, but all has a sad ending. I was scolding myself at the end of the show for choosing such show on a Valentine Day outing. We went for a lunch at a restaurant at Cineleisure, i remember myself feeling very much flattered when i caught his eyes on my bare shoulders, he was definately checking me out. Hahaha. Im just very wicked sometimes. I tease him about it and he simply blush and became slightly flustered and shy. I proudly gave him the Valentine present i had prepared for him, but he was even more flustered as he hadn't thought i would prepare anything as i wasn't his girlfriend yet. 'One point deducted' i was thinking. But seeing him being so flustered, how can i bear to place any blame on him. On the second day(or was it the third?), he offered to sent me home after work. I was given a very pleasant surprise when he give me his 'belated' Valentine Day present,he was very affected by the fact that i had prepared something and he didn't. It was a nicely wrapped up box with a card that says something along the line of 'Hope this dog can keep me company' As i have a jack russel dog that ran away sometime ago, its so sweet of him to buy something to replace. But i was puzzled, when i opened the box at home. Out came a coin bank in the shape of a bear. My mum walk by and say' What a nice Snoopy dog' And i answered her 'Are you kiddin me, this is a bear isn't it?' But she insist its a bear. Chatting with R on the phone that night, he said he bought a dog coin bank, but i replied him it really looks like a bear, but he insist to him it looks like a dog. Oh well, after a few weeks, everything was out, the sales girl had taken the wrong coin bank. R had selected the dog coin bank, but a bear coin bank when under the wrapper instead. Its was still a wonderful memory.....
our subsequent movies...his fingers would quietly go to my palms, and he would tickle the heart of my palm. It infuriate me at first, as i treat that action as he is trying to flirt and is initiating some sexual motions. But i later realise this naive fellow doesn't have any idea about how rude that action is. I guess im just a too sensitive person. He folded his arms while watching movie, but his fingers would run gently from the side of his body over to my upper arms, tapping at it playfully. That was our beginning, the mark of a beautiful story, my beautiful story, that will unfold throughout the months.
Wednesday, March 07, 2007
Voyage
We travel this road to find happiness.
Everyone is a traveler, carrying his own never-healing wounds.
See? You look good with a smile on your face.
How many times have I gotten lost?
Every time, the one who extended hiswarm helping hand was you.
At the end of this long path, what will we think?
Everyone is a traveler, wandering about in search of love.
Let's go together until we tire of it.
What I wanted to be?
Not a princess.
What I wanted to have?
Not glass slippers.
What I wanted to be?
I wanted to be with you.
What I wanted to have?
Was your smiling face.
Everyone is a traveler, carrying his own never-healing wounds.
See? You look good with a smile on your face.
How many times have I gotten lost?
Every time, the one who extended hiswarm helping hand was you.
At the end of this long path, what will we think?
Everyone is a traveler, wandering about in search of love.
Let's go together until we tire of it.
What I wanted to be?
Not a princess.
What I wanted to have?
Not glass slippers.
What I wanted to be?
I wanted to be with you.
What I wanted to have?
Was your smiling face.
Friday, March 02, 2007
Because of you
We have come to know each other little by little
But suddenly I find I know nothing about you
Please tell me what you feel by the time I understand it
You can even shout
My love grew when we couldn't meet
My heart ached because my voice didn't reach you
I found I couldn't go back to the times
When I had not known you
Please don't smile with such sorrowful eyes
As if you were about to be broken and disappear
What can I do, my dear?
But suddenly I find I know nothing about you
Please tell me what you feel by the time I understand it
You can even shout
My love grew when we couldn't meet
My heart ached because my voice didn't reach you
I found I couldn't go back to the times
When I had not known you
Please don't smile with such sorrowful eyes
As if you were about to be broken and disappear
What can I do, my dear?
Monday, February 19, 2007
Happy Chinese New Year
Every year seems the same but this year Lunar New year i feel that everythin kinds of start changin already. This is the first time i had a new year without the full strength of my family. With my brother being married and having moved out of the house, i feel sad sometimes, the house seems a bit quiet this year. The morning of Chu Yi is not much the same any more, no one fightin to use the toilet, and no one initiatin to wish our parents new year greetins in exchange for that fat angpow. I feel sad for my parents sometimes, coz i knew that in the next 5-10 years this house will become more n more empty. Once all of us has gotten married, they would be by themselves on every eve of chinese new year, though we may be back for that reunion dinner but whats forever lost is the lively spirits of each of us bouncing around the house, my brother always hoggin the mirror to gel his hair up, me and my sis fightin with him for the mirror space as we apply our make up, my mother will usually intervene at this point for a generous space so that she can apply her blood red lipstick.
Though one looks foward to growing up, to get married and start a family of his own but i knew that the memories of my family will always be in my heart.
Though one looks foward to growing up, to get married and start a family of his own but i knew that the memories of my family will always be in my heart.
Wednesday, February 14, 2007
My Valentine Day
Mmmm.....everytime i close my eyes i feel so loved all over again. Had a wonderful valentine day this year, it has been so long so long since i enjoyed my valentine day. Everything was a simple affair but just being with him is enough to make my whole day wonderful.
Had a pleasant dinner at Out of the pan basement of Raffles Shopping Centre. Its a place i have been longing to go for a long long time, everytime i walk past the restaurant after meetin my clients i see my lovely couple having their meal there. Eating right beside the water fountain and with the tiny tables they have, its a perfect place for couples to be so near ech other when they are savourin every bite of the crepes.
Nothin beats wakin up in the morning to have ur love ones lying beside u, i rem this words being spoken to mi some time long ago, how true. But i think i need to strt working on fulfillin my dreams. I dreamt long long time ago when i was young, to get married one day, to wake up early in the morning and cooked a sumptuous breakfast for my husband, i would feed him the egg and orange juice, snuggle cozily beside him and we could spent hours in the bath tub after that. Heee... soon...
Although my R always said that he is not one who likes to shower gifts but he has given mi so much all of a sudden, i was almost drown with happiness. My R is always observant to the things i like and the things i want, his observant skills is almost perfect,. Paying for my Levis as Valentine day present was already a wonderful surprise but never had i dreamt that he would finalli gave in and secretly purchased the tickets for the musical 'The Phantom of the Opera' I was really at a lost of words when i saw the hidden tickets, to think that seconds before i ws even throwin a small tantrum at him for not huggin mi. My tears had spill right that second as i read the card and look down at the tickets but they were tears of joy, every single tear was jumpin with happiness and pride. I look forward to attendin the musical with him on his birthday.
We went to Cathay Cineleisure for a movie coz i was thinkin of refreshin everythin that we did last year on this date. I can still rem how Our relationship had blossom since 1 yr ago on 14th Feb 2006 at Cathay Cineleisure. Having to worked in the afternoon, we had to rush through our date, catchin a movie at 10am in the morning and having quick lunch at a restaurant on the 4th level. Its a pity the restaurant is no longer there but I will always remember the daring guy who tried to touch my hand in the theatre, the silly guy that blush when i tease him for lookin at my bare shoulders. The surprise look on his face when he receive a Valentine present from his date. Our 1 year hasn't been easy and yet its not really hard. I look forward to the many years to come.
Had a pleasant dinner at Out of the pan basement of Raffles Shopping Centre. Its a place i have been longing to go for a long long time, everytime i walk past the restaurant after meetin my clients i see my lovely couple having their meal there. Eating right beside the water fountain and with the tiny tables they have, its a perfect place for couples to be so near ech other when they are savourin every bite of the crepes.
Nothin beats wakin up in the morning to have ur love ones lying beside u, i rem this words being spoken to mi some time long ago, how true. But i think i need to strt working on fulfillin my dreams. I dreamt long long time ago when i was young, to get married one day, to wake up early in the morning and cooked a sumptuous breakfast for my husband, i would feed him the egg and orange juice, snuggle cozily beside him and we could spent hours in the bath tub after that. Heee... soon...
Although my R always said that he is not one who likes to shower gifts but he has given mi so much all of a sudden, i was almost drown with happiness. My R is always observant to the things i like and the things i want, his observant skills is almost perfect,. Paying for my Levis as Valentine day present was already a wonderful surprise but never had i dreamt that he would finalli gave in and secretly purchased the tickets for the musical 'The Phantom of the Opera' I was really at a lost of words when i saw the hidden tickets, to think that seconds before i ws even throwin a small tantrum at him for not huggin mi. My tears had spill right that second as i read the card and look down at the tickets but they were tears of joy, every single tear was jumpin with happiness and pride. I look forward to attendin the musical with him on his birthday.
We went to Cathay Cineleisure for a movie coz i was thinkin of refreshin everythin that we did last year on this date. I can still rem how Our relationship had blossom since 1 yr ago on 14th Feb 2006 at Cathay Cineleisure. Having to worked in the afternoon, we had to rush through our date, catchin a movie at 10am in the morning and having quick lunch at a restaurant on the 4th level. Its a pity the restaurant is no longer there but I will always remember the daring guy who tried to touch my hand in the theatre, the silly guy that blush when i tease him for lookin at my bare shoulders. The surprise look on his face when he receive a Valentine present from his date. Our 1 year hasn't been easy and yet its not really hard. I look forward to the many years to come.
Monday, February 05, 2007
I find it weird sometimes but i do get used to it, that is writing/blogging past events. Oh well..whose gonna know if i dun say.
Sat was a great day, the day passes by so fast. Went accompany R for a haircut at tiong bahru, everyone's seem to be doing something new to their hair these days but i really can't made up my mind what to do with mine. haiz..
Afterwhich we rushed down to Orchard for a facial at FANCL. Not me but to accompany HIM!! Yes yes my boy actually likes to do his regular facial and he even goes for micro-dermabrasion once in a while. Well well... i do look forward to the day his face regains its former glory of smoothness.
Whoopee...due to my good companionship and patience waiting i guess, R rewarded me by paying for my FANCL moisturiser. Ooooh did i mention i already received my Valentine Day present, hee... he surpised mi too by paying for my Levis jeans, but ggrrr..the naughty guy. If i had known earlier that he is gonna use the Levis jeans as my present i would have chosen the nicer one that has crystal. But oh well since he said that i look good in it than thats the most important thing.
Sat was a great day, the day passes by so fast. Went accompany R for a haircut at tiong bahru, everyone's seem to be doing something new to their hair these days but i really can't made up my mind what to do with mine. haiz..
Afterwhich we rushed down to Orchard for a facial at FANCL. Not me but to accompany HIM!! Yes yes my boy actually likes to do his regular facial and he even goes for micro-dermabrasion once in a while. Well well... i do look forward to the day his face regains its former glory of smoothness.
Whoopee...due to my good companionship and patience waiting i guess, R rewarded me by paying for my FANCL moisturiser. Ooooh did i mention i already received my Valentine Day present, hee... he surpised mi too by paying for my Levis jeans, but ggrrr..the naughty guy. If i had known earlier that he is gonna use the Levis jeans as my present i would have chosen the nicer one that has crystal. But oh well since he said that i look good in it than thats the most important thing.
Saturday, January 13, 2007
Retro Queen arrives
Whopeeee!!!The most incredible thing happen!!!
So glad i came to the TP Alumni Nite, although not much of the people we knew were there, but its ok becoz i already anticipated that. Its was well-organized event, and the food was great, i find them delicious actually but maybe the fact that the commitee keep us hungry till 9 plus could have attributed to that as well. Hee.. But it was definately better than some of the weddings that i have went too. Its also the first time i seen Chicken rice being served in buffet. The smell of the chilli sauce was simply droolsome.
Was a bit disappointed when i notice that there were many that came not according to the theme, but was a bit excited when i noticed that my attire was gettin lotsa attention. Well...im a gal, so it does feels great to have guys and gals turning heads at every corner.
Being nominated for Retro Queen didn't came too much of a surprise, i guess its because im used to being nominated for titles of best-Dressed and end up not winning any. So i had in my heart thought that "not again, have to face losing in front of so much people" but that thinkin was cut shot when i notice the lacklustre support the other participants received. Its was a really wonderful feeling when u see all these people whom u dunno clapping and cheering for u when i step forward. Having won the title Retro Queen in front of R meant a lot for me, felt happy coz R can be so proud of me. But i muz say the commitee could really place more effort in preparing the winning prize, i expect no tiara but receiving just 3 small roses and 3 small bears, i hd to used my whole strength to prevent the disappointment from showing on my face. But still at least i knew my Baby will be proud that his gal is a Retro Queen. Hee...
So glad i came to the TP Alumni Nite, although not much of the people we knew were there, but its ok becoz i already anticipated that. Its was well-organized event, and the food was great, i find them delicious actually but maybe the fact that the commitee keep us hungry till 9 plus could have attributed to that as well. Hee.. But it was definately better than some of the weddings that i have went too. Its also the first time i seen Chicken rice being served in buffet. The smell of the chilli sauce was simply droolsome.
Was a bit disappointed when i notice that there were many that came not according to the theme, but was a bit excited when i noticed that my attire was gettin lotsa attention. Well...im a gal, so it does feels great to have guys and gals turning heads at every corner.
Being nominated for Retro Queen didn't came too much of a surprise, i guess its because im used to being nominated for titles of best-Dressed and end up not winning any. So i had in my heart thought that "not again, have to face losing in front of so much people" but that thinkin was cut shot when i notice the lacklustre support the other participants received. Its was a really wonderful feeling when u see all these people whom u dunno clapping and cheering for u when i step forward. Having won the title Retro Queen in front of R meant a lot for me, felt happy coz R can be so proud of me. But i muz say the commitee could really place more effort in preparing the winning prize, i expect no tiara but receiving just 3 small roses and 3 small bears, i hd to used my whole strength to prevent the disappointment from showing on my face. But still at least i knew my Baby will be proud that his gal is a Retro Queen. Hee...
Friday, January 12, 2007
Its a Beautiful day
Thank God for the strength to go on. Things kinda of gets a teeny weeny bit better, as long as i don't put too high hopes or should i say don't put in any hopes, breathing during work seems so much better. Relationship ah...it has its ups & downs, but im relief the bad is finally over.
i miss the old me sometimes, full of smile, considerate for others, simple. i promise myself i will nt be easily jealous i will not be so full of myself anymore. I will not follow people's opinion, i live for myself and not for others. I will not forced myself to follow others opinion, things that i know is right i will do.
Look forward to going overseas with R, one thing i have learnt which is going overseas is with people whom u r not closed is definately not fun.
i miss the old me sometimes, full of smile, considerate for others, simple. i promise myself i will nt be easily jealous i will not be so full of myself anymore. I will not follow people's opinion, i live for myself and not for others. I will not forced myself to follow others opinion, things that i know is right i will do.
Look forward to going overseas with R, one thing i have learnt which is going overseas is with people whom u r not closed is definately not fun.
Friday, January 05, 2007
So happy
Hahaha i so so despise myself sometimes, for having no pride, no self-confidence & lack of self-control. A wonderful sentence,'Tears are a women's weapon' but what people often forgets(incl mi) is that when facing the opposite sex, they hate to be confronted with weapons.
But what should a women do when her 'weapon' is powerless, when she sees the world as a lonely 3 dimensional space, slowly she dun sees the reason to smile, nothin much is interestin enough to keep her smile up. Many times she tried to cheer people around her up, lame jokes, crappy jokes, lending a listening ear now & then, giving an understanding smile when things disappoint her in life. Sometimes it tires her out, it brings her deep in thought as to could the key lies in herself. Maybe she expects too much from her life, but lookin at people around her. She saw the reality of life too, with people putting on a fake front everyday. ...Hahaha
People seek solace in religion, in God when they are in distress, but me...hee..as ive mention in previous blog..ive already drawn further & further away...i still love God but its so hard to draw near to him. I self-guide myself right from the start, i move my way inch by inch towards God with my own will & heart. Now im lost, tired..its like a desert. The oasis seems so near, i can imagine its clear pretty blue water, the fresh air but the walk alone is so...alone... Bible study...hahaha....I used to feel full of fire, so eager to know all abt him, so eager to enrol & i spent more time with my cell group more than with any other friends. But after 2 years i realise than my spiritual life seems no different than what i was 2 years ago. I lack the determination, this i blame no one. But why is it that juz because to others i seem independent therefore no one bother about my spiritual growth. With R, its no different. I need a leader, a strong one. My sister was my spiritual pillar of support, telling me wonderful testimonials of God now & then, but even she now spends more time with others than with me. Its time to escape..to close my eyes to close my thoughts...maybe to be emotionally shutdown is not that bad an idea. Well...knowing my character this form of shutdown shouldn't last long, but sometimes juz like a computer, even human need to shutdown & restart .
But what should a women do when her 'weapon' is powerless, when she sees the world as a lonely 3 dimensional space, slowly she dun sees the reason to smile, nothin much is interestin enough to keep her smile up. Many times she tried to cheer people around her up, lame jokes, crappy jokes, lending a listening ear now & then, giving an understanding smile when things disappoint her in life. Sometimes it tires her out, it brings her deep in thought as to could the key lies in herself. Maybe she expects too much from her life, but lookin at people around her. She saw the reality of life too, with people putting on a fake front everyday. ...Hahaha
People seek solace in religion, in God when they are in distress, but me...hee..as ive mention in previous blog..ive already drawn further & further away...i still love God but its so hard to draw near to him. I self-guide myself right from the start, i move my way inch by inch towards God with my own will & heart. Now im lost, tired..its like a desert. The oasis seems so near, i can imagine its clear pretty blue water, the fresh air but the walk alone is so...alone... Bible study...hahaha....I used to feel full of fire, so eager to know all abt him, so eager to enrol & i spent more time with my cell group more than with any other friends. But after 2 years i realise than my spiritual life seems no different than what i was 2 years ago. I lack the determination, this i blame no one. But why is it that juz because to others i seem independent therefore no one bother about my spiritual growth. With R, its no different. I need a leader, a strong one. My sister was my spiritual pillar of support, telling me wonderful testimonials of God now & then, but even she now spends more time with others than with me. Its time to escape..to close my eyes to close my thoughts...maybe to be emotionally shutdown is not that bad an idea. Well...knowing my character this form of shutdown shouldn't last long, but sometimes juz like a computer, even human need to shutdown & restart .
Wednesday, January 03, 2007
New Year Resolution
Finalli...the old year is gone, 2006 is full of its ups & downs, as the new year comes in 2007, i set myself new resolutions that i hope i will be able to upkeep. I look forward to a wonderful 2007, and may all of us strive to new heights in this good year!!
1) To find the job that can expands and nurture my full potential.
2) To coordinate & balance my time between friends, church, family & prince charming.
3) To be more initiative in contacting my old friends and close friends
4) To be more sales driven & more hardworking in my job, though i may nt stay long i wish to leave behind a good record : )
5) To be more understanding towards everyone in my life and this extends to EVERYONE & nt juz my beloved.
6) To think more, speak less
7) To think faster than i speak(now thats real tough!)
8) To be more lady like
9) To start saving for my future
10) To eat less oily stuff & stay away from chocs
11) To tidy up my room
12) To spend day & night missing my baby
and the list goes on......
1) To find the job that can expands and nurture my full potential.
2) To coordinate & balance my time between friends, church, family & prince charming.
3) To be more initiative in contacting my old friends and close friends
4) To be more sales driven & more hardworking in my job, though i may nt stay long i wish to leave behind a good record : )
5) To be more understanding towards everyone in my life and this extends to EVERYONE & nt juz my beloved.
6) To think more, speak less
7) To think faster than i speak(now thats real tough!)
8) To be more lady like
9) To start saving for my future
10) To eat less oily stuff & stay away from chocs
11) To tidy up my room
12) To spend day & night missing my baby
and the list goes on......
Tuesday, January 02, 2007
Went to Marina Square for a lacklustre countdown, but the fireworks was good. But the crowd has no sense of timing and no one had the initiative to start a countdown. Not that fantastic but oh well its free viewing so can't really expect much, i guess in Singapore we can't expect that much.
Went for a KTV marathon after countdown from 12.30am - 6am at marina square!! Im so tired but really enjoyed myself coz its a great way to bond with my friends!!!Met my ex-bf there, what a small world!
Spent the whole day with R, & i mean the WHOLE day from 8am onwards till the next day morning, i was so happy. Although i wasn't in my usual over-enthu self but i guess its good too coz its time i learn to be more lady-like. Glad i choose to spent the rest of the evening with him instead of meeting a gal friend of mine coz i can see he really appreciate it. Felt super loved by him, it has been so long since he treat me like a princess.
Went for a KTV marathon after countdown from 12.30am - 6am at marina square!! Im so tired but really enjoyed myself coz its a great way to bond with my friends!!!Met my ex-bf there, what a small world!
Spent the whole day with R, & i mean the WHOLE day from 8am onwards till the next day morning, i was so happy. Although i wasn't in my usual over-enthu self but i guess its good too coz its time i learn to be more lady-like. Glad i choose to spent the rest of the evening with him instead of meeting a gal friend of mine coz i can see he really appreciate it. Felt super loved by him, it has been so long since he treat me like a princess.
Wednesday, December 27, 2006
What a Day
Aiyo it really marvels me at how fast things change. I was thinking about how bored i will be at work yesterday morning, was dreading at how slow the day will be, but suddenly with just one phone call made, i had to wheeze out of the office to meet clients and to rush to another place to collect documents and yet rush to a third place to attend to another restaurant feedback cum complaint.All the while fighting with the time, there is simply no time to sit down to have a break. Lunch was quickly settled with a few mouthful of rice and i had to rush off with a phonecall from my colleagues.
Worse thing to happen is to have ur phone low batt on a day like this, i had to rush home to charge my phone for 5-7 mins so as to contact Jolene and to remain contactable by R. I miss R the whole day, no time to call/msg him, have time also cannot call/msg him coz phone low batt.Was looking forward to seeing him coz he say he not be at home but will be near my poly playing bb.
Stupid phone, it can gives u real convenience and yet left u in great despair when u need it the most. After a nice popiah dinner with Jolene, happily was i skipping to look for my beloved to surprise him. Stupid phone, stupid rain, stupid me. Not knowing of Change of venue of bb session resulted in me left stranded in rain with nowhere to go and low batt phone leave me in a worse state of lost & desperation. Thank God for friends, Jolene was like my light in the dark. Thanks Jo.
With her phone i was saved. Eventually after 30 calls R was contacted. R was unhappy that i came, my coming has resulted in him not being able to enjoy supper with the guys. its so hard to create a balance. So hard.I tried my best but I see the cycle coming back, i see deja vu.
'Because i spent time with you, i have no time for sports & my friends & my family' 6 years ago this sentence nearly took my life away, now....haha maybe its me.Maybe the correct way of handling a relationship is to simply dun spent time.
A perfect gf is when she contacts u at a time 'when im free & my friends & family members r not free than i think i miss u baby so here i am' sort of thing.Its a thing i am still learning and have no idea if i will master it one day. Guys out there may deny it, but frankly speaking no guy will say they dun prefer such 'understanding gf' (All gals say 'Aye')
I may sound bitter but if u were me u will be too.
Worse thing to happen is to have ur phone low batt on a day like this, i had to rush home to charge my phone for 5-7 mins so as to contact Jolene and to remain contactable by R. I miss R the whole day, no time to call/msg him, have time also cannot call/msg him coz phone low batt.Was looking forward to seeing him coz he say he not be at home but will be near my poly playing bb.
Stupid phone, it can gives u real convenience and yet left u in great despair when u need it the most. After a nice popiah dinner with Jolene, happily was i skipping to look for my beloved to surprise him. Stupid phone, stupid rain, stupid me. Not knowing of Change of venue of bb session resulted in me left stranded in rain with nowhere to go and low batt phone leave me in a worse state of lost & desperation. Thank God for friends, Jolene was like my light in the dark. Thanks Jo.
With her phone i was saved. Eventually after 30 calls R was contacted. R was unhappy that i came, my coming has resulted in him not being able to enjoy supper with the guys. its so hard to create a balance. So hard.I tried my best but I see the cycle coming back, i see deja vu.
'Because i spent time with you, i have no time for sports & my friends & my family' 6 years ago this sentence nearly took my life away, now....haha maybe its me.Maybe the correct way of handling a relationship is to simply dun spent time.
A perfect gf is when she contacts u at a time 'when im free & my friends & family members r not free than i think i miss u baby so here i am' sort of thing.Its a thing i am still learning and have no idea if i will master it one day. Guys out there may deny it, but frankly speaking no guy will say they dun prefer such 'understanding gf' (All gals say 'Aye')
I may sound bitter but if u were me u will be too.
Monday, December 25, 2006
White White Christmas
Love this year Xmas, im so glad Jean can make it, im so glad of being able to be there when she needs a listening ear. My new year revolution which im gonna try my best to fulfil. 'To think more for others and to lend a listening ear to all' Simply love the Samsung D900(i can take many many pics and videos of R!!) & the Pooh Bear that R got for me. The Pooh Bear is so cute!! Round round face, big big tummy Cute Cute face, its a replica of ME!! Hahaha. Xmas eve party went on well too, food was good. I simply love the choc fondue and the colourful fruits not forgettin the melted marshmellows..wow...im drooling again....R's 'famous' chicken curry was well received with many praise that make his head swell like a big wtermelon. Haha but im glad his curry was well appreciated by all. Im so proud of him : )
My mum was so sweet, gave me a lovely pendent. And i got a pretty in pink ladies bag for the gift exchange. Love the pink bag coz it reflects what my friends think of mi, sweet & feminine. Maybe they r not thinkin dat way, but who cares coz i love deceiving myself this way. Hiak hiakhiak...I give thanks to my da ge ge Norman as well for the set of clothes that he has blessed me & R. R look so charming and sexy in the tops that Norman pass to him that i felt like grabbing him and run off to hide him away.Norman has such explicit taste in fashion, and the midas touch. I never really take notice that i would look well in dresses and soft tone clothes. Now that he mentioned, my shoulders & collar bones do look beautifyl hahaha bu yao lian...My 2nd new year revolution. To stop buying black colour top & bottoms and go for colours. Haha R seems to agree on that too.
Spent the whole morning & afternoon with R on Christmas Day, skipping breakfast & lunch. My tummy became so flat that i juz wish it can remain that way forever. Although we spent almost 3 days together but i still can't bear to pull myself home...i miss my parents but still being with him feels so good. Can't wait to grow up.
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